For a long time I considered myself calm, peaceful, methodical when I was training parkour, and was resistant to the idea that I was an adrenaline Junkie. Recently listening to a podcast about the worlds first base jumpers the dialogue around the feeling of base jumping seemed so strikingly similar to the dialogue around the feeling of practicing parkour. I had placed Base jumping squarely on the other side of the spectrum from what I did and validated that based on my feelings and experiences of calm and flow.
Now I wonder whether careful practice allows you to have just a bit of adrenaline - not so much to make you sick but enough to add clarity and enhance performance.
This is further explored in Bone Games by Rob Schultheis - which explores ideas around athletic highs and a search for the recipe of deep presence and seemingly superhuman physical expression.
Are we shamans in training? Are we junkies? Are we masters of our biochemical reactions or have we shaped a narrow environment of behavior to engage with in order to feel as though we are?